Time, Love, Missing You

Thirty One Days, 

Three Hours, 

Twenty Seven Minutes & Counting

 Since The Last Kiss,

 Last Embrace, 

Last Time I Caught The Scent Of Your Skin

 The Last Glance 

Inciting Me To Chorus

My Heart Creates Tears

Missing You

 As My Soul Bleeds From Thirst

 Deeply In Love 

With You!

~~~Skin I'm In~~~

Do Unto Others

In our lifetime we often encounter women who struggle with weight, health issues, low self-esteem and depression. As women, in relationships or not, these obstacles may create a need for their self worth to be validated.  For women this seems to be a commonality; however how often is it acknowledged that men struggle with the very same issues?  

Men struggle with weight. Their youth has exited stage left 15- 20 years ago and the body builder body they worked so hard to obtain is now obsolete.  The sleek runners body has run its course.  These very simple issues may cause low self-esteem, depression and poor sexual performance.  No this is not Dr. Ruth, Dr. Phil or Dr. Oz it's just Angela.  Exposed to a number of life experiences and served as a sounding board for many.  

As women, do we communicate with our men to ascertain what may be troubling them? Are we even in tune with them as we should be?  Do we provide support in their efforts to gain a healthier lifestyle or do we add to the detriment of their lives?  Just like the family that prays together, stays together.  The family that works out together....WORKS OUT TOGETHER!!! Do we, offer unconditionally, the same support to them as we expect them to provide to us?  Let's be honest, we are not as supportive as we should be. Unfortunately we can tear a man's esteem down viciously without thought. Sometimes it is done by silence.  Lack of communication is a silent killer. 

This is not to take away from a man's masculinity.  It is to acknowledge that you are not alone.  We are here to uplift not down shift and push you off a cliff. 

~~~Skin I'm In~~~ 

Reciprocity - Random Thoughts

I am one that attempts to exhibit  a positive attitude most of the time.  However one must be realistic.  There are times when we are quite pessimistic no matter how hard we try to be that ray of sunshine.  We are human, I am human.

This post is one of self counseling if that makes the least bit of sense.  
It's difficult to admit when your efforts of love and friendship are going nowhere.  You find yourself feeling as though you are an irritant to those you expect to reciprocate the same thoughts and feelings that you exhibit.  Through many months or years if you allow it to go on that long you establish finally, to coin a phrase, "They're just not that into you."
 
Admitting these efforts are futile does not go without pain. Confronting others regarding your efforts and the lack of theirs seems to fall upon deaf ears. Really they owe you absolutely nothing outside of respect. So why waste your breath on confrontation.  

It is necessary to break the cycle of contact. The act of initiating the communication whether it be via face to face, phone call, text, email, letter (obsolete) or social media.  We can no longer be a slave to the rhythm. As the efforts put forth should not result in one waiting around to hear from the other.   

Randomness..

~~~Skin I'm In~~~

Shadow of My Smile

 Loyalty Once Lived

Back In The Day

 Things Were Cool

My Soul Flower

Take Me Flying With You

Thick Scars

Life's Battles

Embrace It's Captive Audience

My Soul

Shadows Always Follow

Pretending To Be

Someone Else

Escaping The Experience

 Fallen Victim To Amnesia

Trembling Like A Flower

Dancing To The Blues

In The Shadow of My Smile

To Pretend to Be Someone Else

I Wouldn't Have Grown To Be Me

Grievances And Shadows

Will No Longer Spoil My Eyes

Preventing This Flower

From Flying High

 ~~~Skin I'm In~~~

Lauryn Hill - Ex-Factor----Who Do I Have To Be To Gain Reciprocity???

Defenseless

Defenseless

Nothing really left to say

Captured by my own thirst

To experience a love unknown

  Shackled by confusion

 

Hear me when I say

No more to be led to what is thought to be

  The point of no return

  In your secret garden

 

  Never too proud to beg

  Never wanted to be blinded by the uncertainty 

Procured by your mystery

My spirit embraces the intellect

  As it escapes your lips

  Placing shackles on my heart

 

Smitten by the warmth your soul flaunts

Yet unable to translate the emotions

Until the sum of all my fears

Strikes a hearty blow

When no longer a part of you

 

Patiently waiting for an invitation

To hear you play the sound of midnight

Often leaves the question

 Give you my devotion

Remaining defenseless or leave

Allowing the tears

To refresh your memory when someone else

Breaks your heart

 

~~~Skin I'm In~~~

Knowing Me

Do you know where I come from

Or where I want to go?

Do you know where my happiness lies

Or what touches my soul?

Do you know what shields me

Or what makes me defenseless?

Do you know how bright my heart shines

Or what peaks my interest?

Do you know how I love thee

Or how to satisfy?
Do you know how to love me

Or should tears I cry?

Knowing you is knowing me.

~~~Skin I'm In~~~